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パパ、風邪でダウン。仕事が立て込んでいる中、会社を早退して自宅療養。鼻水、咳、悪寒がひどい。Leoは抗生物質のおかげか、中耳炎も気管支炎も大丈夫みたい。まだ本調子じゃないみたいだけど…

I just left the office early today due to bad cold. Just too much stuff to do at work but nothing is more important than health. Leo seems OK, although not feeling perfect. I guess the antibiotics is working now.

昨日学校のジェニファーさんと話したあと、家でもLeoに自分でトライする機会を増やそうと決意。さっきハイハイして自分でベッドに登る見本を見せたら、悲しそうな目で、「できないって分かってて何でそんなことしなきゃいけないの~。もうイヤだよー!」と訴えている感じで泣いていた。

After discussion with Jennifer yesterday, I decided to create more opportunities for Leo to try everything by himself. So I demonstrated how to crawl to the bed and climb there. Leo was looking at me and his eyes in tears, almost felt like saying "you know I can't do it, right? why are you asking me to do that, dad?"

親として、障害児が将来自立した生活が送れるように、心を鬼にして、それでもさせなきゃいけないのは分かってるけれど…でも、今日はできなかった。ただただ、ゴメンね~って言って抱きしめるしか出来なかった。涙がとまらなかった。

As a parent of a child with disability, I know I need to be tough on him so that he can have an independent life as much as possible. But when I looked at his sad eyes, I just could not do it. The only thing I could do is hold him tight, saying sorry, sorry, and sorry... again. I couldn't stop the tears in my eyes.

もっと強くならなきゃ…
反省の毎日…

I need to be stronger. I just need to...
Lots of things to think about everyday...



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カリフォルニア・サンディエゴ郊外在住。失調症の息子のことを中心に、日米の障害児事情の比較や、ふと思ったことなどを書いてます。コメント、TBフリーです。

From San Diego, CA. Topics on my son with ataxic CP, US-Japan comparison on physically-challenged children, and just some tweets from life. Comments welcome.

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